The
first time I was in Royce Hall was 43 years ago. I was 12 years
old, a working-class Latin kid from L.A. — or, more precisely,
from Hawthorne, a city most of this audience probably knows only
as the setting of Quentin Tarantino's "Pulp Fiction"
and "Jackie Brown," two films that capture the ineffable
charm of my hometown.
I had persuaded my poor, tired father to drive me to UCLA, after
he had spent a long day working as a salesman in a department
store, so that I could hear director Fritz Lang present a newly
discovered print of his silent film "Frau im Mond."
(I was a very weird 12-year-old.)
When the lights went down and the film began, my father fell into
a gentle slumber, but I basked in the black-and-white glory of
Expressionist Berlin. I could not believe that I was in the same
room as Fritz Lang, who seemed to me a figure out of myth or legend
— like Shakespeare, Tarzan or Achilles.
That was L.A. in the early 1960s. I saw Groucho Marx, Jascha Heifetz
and Moe Howard on the streets of Westwood. And I listened to LPs
of great L.A. composers such as Igor Stravinsky, Arnold Schoenberg
and Brian Wilson. To quote William Wordsworth, one of the few
British writers who never made it to L.A.:
As
a 12-year old Italian-Mexican kid, how did I even know who Fritz
Lang was — not to mention that he was speaking at Royce
Hall? From the printed word. I read about Lang's lecture in the
Los Angeles Times, and I had learned about his films from
my other favorite L.A.-based periodical — Forrest J. Ackerman's
Famous Monsters of Filmland.
When I was growing up, Hawthorne was a rough town. But it was
a wonderful place for a kid because I had to walk only three blocks
to a huge public library. I escaped there nearly every day after
school to read Ray Bradbury, H.P. Lovecraft and H.G. Wells, authors
who soon led me to George Orwell, Aldous Huxley and Kurt Vonnegut.
Who in turn led me to T.S. Eliot, W.H. Auden and Elizabeth Spencer.
It
was, of course, a ruinous path that ultimately led me to break
the hearts of both my sainted parents — by becoming a poet.
I
have been involved, one way or another, in literary life for nearly
40 years — ever since my first amateurish book reviews and
god-awful teenage poems appeared in the cold light of mimeograph.
But I learned early on that, wherever I went in literary life,
I was expected to apologize for being from L.A. Maybe I'm shallow
or shameless, but I was always stubbornly proud to be a native
Angeleno.
I first experienced this pernicious protocol when I moved to the
Bay Area. San Franciscans looked on L.A. culture the way —
according to my family, at least — Florentines looked at
Sicilians.
It was pure de haut en bas. As Herb Caen so slyly expressed
this prejudice: "Isn't it nice that people who prefer Los
Angeles to San Francisco live there?" Actually, it was nice
that these voluntary Angelenos, such as Christopher Isherwood,
Billy Wilder, Alfred Hitchcock, Lotte Lehmann, Anita Loos, Chester
Himes, David Hockney and James Wong Howe, chose to live here.
I grew up among immigrants from Italy and Mexico, so I always
felt at home with people like Lang and Stravinsky, Hitchcock and
Isherwood. They were just like my family — where all the
adults had foreign accents.
Maybe San Francisco had been around too long. In all its magnificent
beauty and elegant respectability, San Francisco had forgotten
the Gold Rush. It had forgotten the rude, unbuttoned, animating
spirit of California. To quote a fourth-generation San Franciscan,
historian Kevin Starr: Whatever else California was, good or bad,
it was charged with human hope. It was linked imaginatively with
the most compelling of American myths, the pursuit of happiness.
Moving to New York a few years later — where I would live
for two decades — I was also expected to be embarrassed
about being an Angeleno. I can't tell you how many people quoted
Woody Allen's now canonic remark that the only cultural advantage
to living in L.A. was being able to turn right on red. I must
say that I remembered that quote most vividly every time I was
caught in Manhattan gridlock.
I
know I sound like an unabashed literary polygamist, but let me
confess that not only do I love literary New York, San Francisco
and L.A. with equal passion, but every time I walk down Michigan
Avenue, I get the hots for Chicago. Loving one great literary
city doesn't prohibit you from loving another.
In
fact, the only place I've ever lived where I wasn't expected to
apologize for being an Angeleno is the city I live in now, Washington,
D.C. — probably because most of the writers I meet in Washington
are themselves already slightly embarrassed by living there. Washington
is not, in case you've wondered, a bohemian city. It's the only
place in the world where even the poets are expected to wear a
dark suit and tie.
Los
Angeles, the city of Raymond Chandler, Ray Bradbury and Octavia
Butler, is now the biggest book market in North America. And,
as a recent survey by the National Endowment for the Arts demonstrates
(with a statistical certainty of 99.5%), Californians read more
than New Yorkers. Los Angeles is one of the great literary centers
of the English-speaking world — not to mention a growing
center of the Spanish-speaking mundo.
Literature
is the irreplaceable human art. "A book," wrote Franz
Kafka, "must be the ax for the frozen sea inside us."
Reading not only illuminates our souls, it makes the lives of
others more real to us — in all their diversity and complexity.
Books enlarge, enhance and refine our humanity, and slowly transform
our society to match our dreams.
As the 12th century Persian poet Omar Khayyam once wrote: